[Official] #01

2014 is not gonna be a good year for me.

Back to this 'nobody will see' space

A couple of responsibilities fell hard on my shoulders.

More priorities this year, suffering from insomnia.

Definitely not a good sign.

Moving on...

 

Is this an end for us?

Knowing you likes him,

how can i be feeling secured?

True,i'm a man but i'm also a human.

So much uncertainities.

Just wanted to know if you are still with me.

I know i'm not the kind of man you expected for.

I'm done with that, which i've been trying to be one.

While trying to be one, i'm gone.

Yes! I am an emotional guy,

But if i were to hold back all my emotion for you.

You are definitely the one.

It's not gonna be easy to be your priorities,

but it's also not easy to feel like an option.

 

Guess it's just me being paranoid that leads us where we are today.

I'm not your partner, we are of no status.

You are free to choose anybody.

But i just can't afford to lose you.

I don't care how much effort i put in,

or how  my effort will go down the drain.

Because true love will hold on for that one reason,

even if there are 1001 reasons to let go.

 

This is what kept me holding on till now:

My love for you

 

 

 

 



Last words of 2013

- 2013 -
 A year full of twist and turn
28 April this year
I knew you and thats probably the best thing ever.
I fell for you so deeply that even i can't imagine.
Along the way, all those ups and downs we've gone through.
I've still could not understand why you can't accept us in the relationship.
Till yesterday;
I've spend some time reading your past tweet,
and i could understand how deeply you were in love with him;
how I couldn't replace him.
Fear overcame me.
I guess i've been saying and doing alot of stupid things.
Just to get your attention.
Knowing you don't like attention seekers, i tried not to.
But i fear you fell for others.
We had great time in Phuket,
that is till then i realised i didn't just fall for you;
I had fallen in love with the moments with you and the courtship.
You're the first in everything so far;
the first girl whom my mum saw and we're not together,
the first girl i've made breakfast for;
the first girl who makes me go crazy over.
This is definitely not because 'you're harder to get'
It's because I love you.
I must admit, my heart is no longer as in the past,
wooing and waiting for a girl for years.
and i'm also surprised of my perserverance,
I've been trying to figure out what is going on.
And i've realised that i have fallen for you too deeply.
I don't dare to think if one day you were to leave my life,
how would i react.
Frankly speaking, my thought of changing job not because of me only,
it's because i want to give you a life, that no one can.
i believe that there are other suitors who are doing the same.
I don't want ’曾经拥有‘
I only want '天长地久' with you.
2014 is around the corner,
I hope thing will be better for us.
Anyway, you probably won't be able see this post either.
This is where i can pour all my feelings out and nobody knows about it.
 

I love you

But who am I to you?

I guess i'm just not good enough for you

LOST

 

I've lost myself;

while searching the presence of me in you.

 

When you say that 'We're just friends';

It kills me slowly inside.

 

When you say that,

 ' I'm still the best '

I was overjoyed

 

But look at where we are now;

~ Nowhere

 

 

 

 

 

 



Define

CAVIOUS

[adjective]
Life's a bitch, so what?
Keep the faith
Hold on and keep it going


Once gone, Forever gone

 

In life,

One have to walk a path where no man walks

One have to say what no man says

One have to be a greater man of  man.

I will not concede defeat,

I will not claim any success.

I had brought along loads of

precious lessons,and beautiful memories.

A great man once said :

" Love is not about possession;

Love is all about appreciation "

 

 

Probably the most heart mutilating choice i made.

Life will never be the same again.